Suay and heng

B cells are termed naive when they first differentiate out. HAHAHA. That is so true. They have yet to meet all the evils out there, and therefore are not armed and prepared to face them.

Today something funny happened. Liling and I were gonna take a bus home. But after reaching the bus stop, I realized that the stop didn't have the bus she needed to take... I was thinking we can just take a bus down to the next stop where... I was thinking had that particular number

Liling, do you use a bus pass?
Yea...

Liling! I thought you use a bus pass?? How come you only you only have 11 cents in your card?!?!
Huh. Oh actually i don't have bus pass.

The best thing was that actually that particular next stop didn't have the number either. And... while I had only american coins and a few 5 cents, Liling wasn't much better off because she used up her coins on her paopao ca. So how? We walked to the next stop........ But, halfway there it started raining! Heavily! I don't know if we were suay or what man. But a cab came along just on time and we hopped on. So we were like both suay and heng. After a while, it seems as if we had passed the rainy zone and we decided to get outta the cab and switch to bus instead. Well great. After paying the cab fare, Liling had enough coins to pay her way home. And the buses came with little waiting too.

O so funny...I just wonder where does life lead to sometimes.

Hi Final Year....

AHHHH!!! I'm going back to lab tomorrow. Feels so.... unexciting =( Hai. What would Prof Kwang say if he knew that I was making such sad comments. He will probably think that he has taken the wrong Honours student in. I tell Liling... Hey Liling should I really do Honours year... And Liling would respond... It's only your first week! And then... I will continue with my miserable face, and then tell myself that I want to have an Honours degree, and antibodies screening is a useful technique indeed.

Actually there's this UROPS student in the lab. I mean. She is a happy UROPS student! That's just fantastic. She likes the module 2202, the PCR is probably her best friend... Joyce tells her that she doesn't like microB and she starts getting defensive over it. Haha. This is a good science student.

Well... of course I should continue with my Honours year... It would be impractical not to. It's probably the... messiness of the place and... well. The thing is I don't have my own lab space yet and I'm still in the learning process so... things will probably look up. God has given me grace. I mean. I have 2 good friends in the lab with me. How fortunate is that.

Plus... I reckon I can look forward to film school! Add some colour to my life... I wouldn't be able to even take Neuro next sem. Maybe I'm crazy but that's the year 4 module that I'm most interested in to take. Umm... So. I was actually thinking of taking a Professional Communications module as well. Sometimes I think that I'm crazy. I would be taking more modules then I need to graduate and I have no more S/U options and such planning may jeopardize my HYP (plus... considering that I didn't take Immuno and my lab is full of immuno stuff). Oh well but that's a useful module and I think I really need something like that to straighten myself out... At least the way that I present myself anyway.

Actually I went to the Youth challenge website just now. Actually umm... humanitarian work is something that I'm really interested in. As in... it's something that I really want to do.
"There are a number of meanings for humanitarianism: humanitarianism, humanism, the doctrine that people's duty is to promote human welfare."
-Wikipedia (this is a fabulous website. I person who created it is fantastic. I can just find out the meaning of Western blotting in good digestible terms over here)
But for some reason my brain files it under work. Am I speaking in weird terms again? Well anyway, human passions are discovered over time so I shall just leave it at that.I just hope that I don't have too high expectations of life. Been telling folks that sometimes we just lack contentment in our lives.

Umm... So I guess that it was also a good thing that I went ahead with the internship becos it turned out that there wasn't much of a need for me to start earlier with my project. Yea so... hello Year 4!!!

Love love and more love...

Me n Pam! Yea someone graduated.
And after graduating she's going back to school again. Heh

Sometimes... I feel happy to have friends... Nice people make the world a better place to live in. Of course crappy times are still bad butx... I would rather have both crap and happiness then none at all...

Life in science

Yay... Finally figured out how to bluetooth all the stuffx between my phone and the laptop. Today was my third day at TLL. I am definitely learning stuff. I mean... It's not the most exciting thing going on because I havent started on my experiments proper but it's a happy thing to be with friends and... to have a pretty nice mentor and... well hopefully I can start on MY experiment soon!

So... My new friend at TLL. Heh. It's as if it's my pet. But I always admire it while waiting for the lift. I love turtles.

The cute pig nosed turtle

So Sharp ah

Ugh... I'm so grouchy nowadays.... there's something wrong with me...

And I feel like I'm becoming like Simon Cowell... So critical. Being critical's fine... But being insensitive to people isn't. Simon Cowell is BAD. I don't care if his comments are true or entertaining, it's just bad to tear down people's confidence without a conscience or a blink of his concealer whitened eyes.

I'm being mean. Look at me. I'm just criticizing that guy when I said that I am going to be a more understanding and encouraging person. I need to control my tongue sometimes.

Anyway. Lab's tomorrow. First days are always exciting. You don't know what to expect. And therefore, you're not sure what to prepare.

Other random comments? Went to the library today cos Pam was looking for a book. Haven't been to a library in ages. Just realized that there are actually nice things to read over there. Well. Cool refreshment.

but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.
-James 3:8

I think i need to clean my spring...(Actually God needs to clean it)

~~o yay i found my cert. Where? It was kept back in my cupboard. I guess some neatness came over me and I wasn't use to it~~

That's what it is

Today is the day where I opened up the drawer and finally saw what was inside.

Part of your world

Ok. I think I'm a reflective mode. So I can write some things down. I remember saying to the interns that I feel... weird or something leaving the office. WZ didn't really get what I meant but CS was like... don't you feel sometimes people come into your life and after that they are gone...? Yea. So... That's what I meant. As we grow older... it takes more effort to keep in contact... we don't have classrooms to keep people at close proximity.

It's like... Shiwei and I use to study together all the time! It was so cool. I mean... it was nice... you know... and I would know what she's doing/ studying and she would probably know too. But now it's different. I look at her work and I'm reminded that we are in 2 separate academic zones. It has like 10 or 20% overlaps but... still different on the whole.

And then there's Rachel Mak. Actually she doesnt feel that far off away but... if Zhiwei were my brother (he is anyway) then Rachel would be like my sister. Cos we would just pop by each other's place for company during our room-mate stint =)

Well there are many other people too but I guess the bottom line is that... Keeping in contact's great. Fabulous. But. Kinda hard work

Sorting out my life...

If only life were thaaaat simple

My Happy and Sad day

Today was a happy and sad day...

Well. Starting with the happy things, the piano finally has a stand. It's not like a neglected kid anymore.

And next. The weather was nice. So nice that I went for a jog with YingShi. It's during such days when you just feel like you need to spend more time outdoors. Wow. It actually lasted 25min! I mean... Yea it was real slow at times too but not bad. Yingshi is a nice jogging partner =)

Next... I feel unexcited about going back to school. Ughhh... I just don't feel excited about studying... student like is nice and slow paced but... but... don't ask me why.

Lab work. Work

How they (restriction enzymes) attained this specificity is one of the puzzles of molecular biology, a situation with which the experimenter fortunately does not have to concern himself or herself.

-Molecular Biology and Genomics text by Mulhardt

Hey ya la. How true. I think about such things from time to time too. Anyway, this text author Mulhardt is the most entertaining author I've come across so far. Good job man. We should write like that. Lab reports would become more interesting is authors put a bit of themselves in it. Hehe.

Will be starting on my lab soon... next week. So. Will have to finish up my preparation. Which includes reading up, getting my piano stand and... I dunno. Just deal with my room.

I'm glad the Liling is my lab partner. She's a goooood lab partner. Not that she's fantastic at making buffers or anything but, it's just that she is enthusiastic about all these experimental stuff. Yay. That kind of boosts my morale and rubs off on me a little bit. So. Good enthu labmate!

Actually... I was just wondering whether I should join some extra activity because... I may be taking only science modules next semester and that can get kind of... well, I might feel over-scienced. SO. I think... when I comes to such things, including job search, I realized that there are some factors.

The interest draws me to it.
The benefits gets me into it.
And the sense of fulfillment keeps me in it.

Hmm... Not a bad summary.

Haiyoh

It's funny.........

I went to ICA to renounce my Malaysian citizenship, only to lose my Singapore citizenship certificate. The beauty and brilliance of this irony.

I'm so smart!

It's been bad actually. 4 trips to the Malaysian embassy and 4 trips to the ICA just to rectify my citizenship status and renew my passport. Uhh... I am sorta glad that it is... sorta over...

Thomas's Haagen Daaz

Heh. Time to post pictures again! Today ICA was so terribly slow. I'm not made of grass ey... They expected me to wait for 2 hours? Oh well. Tomorrow I'll be going back with a book. Forgot to bring some magazines this time round.

Anywayx. Our previous intern outing. We ate at sakuza. Weizan says that my irritated look is scary. Actually that's not scary. But apparently he's only used to seeing me giggling or something. Must scare him more often.

Hehe. The grandpa feeding Thomas's bear a cookie. So cute!!!

Haha...so sweet

And then... we were off to Haagen's! Thomas's nice treat =) Cos he did well for his final sem. It was cool. He just managed to pull his cap up to a 2nd upper before graduating.
So... Here we have the untamed WZ vs the docile WZ. You can compare the first WZ with the model behind too. Hurhur. Actually WZ can go model for Haagen's too. Awaken the animal instincts in you with Haagen Daaz. hahahahaha

Hurhur. Apparently WZ laughed so much that he cried. This beats the time on the bus when we were talking about Gerry Law.

WZ says that my pose is not bad... looks natural compared to... Iya... WZ is crazy la... Haha

Other random shots of food and chattery

Best brand he says!

Ok... Our group pose =)

Freaked out

A FREAKING COCKROACH was on my BED and my HAIR last night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I'm so disgusted. I hate xiaoqiangs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish they would disappear.....the german breed kind anyway.

So freaky. It was scurrying across the walls yesterday afternoon and I was wondering what was it doing in MY ROOM. My room's not supposed to have such things. And then, in the middle of the night, after waking to go to the loo and going back to bed, i heard it fly across me. Already starting to get paranoid already. Ok I'm not going to go into anymore details. Anyway, it was already 4am and after I managed to get that ugh bug off my bed (with the all the generous servings mad flapping and restrained portions of noise. It was, after all 4AM), I was... racking my head for ideas on how to deal with it... I mean. I'm not gonna be able to sleep with it on the loose in my room!

It was then that I decided that I'm gonna get a can of insect spray... Must learn to defend myself already. Whole family was sleeping and... I couldn't bring myself to whack it... So... I had the craziest idea... I sealed off the bookshelf with plastic wrapping and went back to sleep. I mean... I also comtemplated trapping it under some container but it wasn't coming out and I wasn't gonna go make it so...

Enough of this lone ranger story against a mini threat. Such a crazy fear man. I don't even know how it came about. Anyway, I am I am I am going to get that spray

My coolwarm fruitfulunfruitful Sunday

You are just becoming more aware of liars

Hmm! That statement sums up everything! So scrap the rest. The realistic thing is just something that has already been occurring. Heh.

Yay! So today CS decided to be a christian. Ok the initial huh reaction wasn't the best part buuuutx, it's cool. Yea.

And the only clothes in J8 that appeal to me are the kiddy clothes. Ugh. Where are all the nice clothes in the world???

My trait and my... othies

Cynical, pessimistic, sarcastic, satirical...

imply holding a low opinion of humanity. Cynical suggests a disbelief in the sincerity of human motives: cynical about honesty. Pessimistic implies a more or less habitual disposition to look on the dark side of things, and to believe that the worst will happen: pessimistic as to the future. Sarcastic refers to sneering or making cutting jibes: sarcastic about a profession of faith. Satirical suggests expressing scorn or ridicule by saying the opposite of what one means: a satirical attack on his political promises.

- dictionary.com

Ok la. I don't think I'm becoming a cynical person really. Just. More realistic. I don't know if it's partially because of my internship. I mean. Could be. Cos I only started becoming more aware of such traits in myself recently. Cynicism... always reminds me of the donkey from Animal Farm.

Eyy... Feel sleepy. Maybe I shall write some stuff about what I've been up to.
Hmm... There are the US photos waiting for me. Quite a huge personal project collating them. There are tonnes of photos really. Tonnes. Tonnes. I cannot stop emphasizing that point. Tonnes. O gosh.

And then... I went for a charity dinner last night. No I didn't pay for it... My mum invited me. No she didn't donate either. It was just something behind the scenes altogether. Anyway. There was a beauty pageant. Uhh... Actually the only exciting parts about such pageants are the QnA sessions. Other then that... I was... kind of bored... Well it's just that I thought the dinner was gonna be some buffet. Not a... 5hour affair, whereby I had to wait for 1 hour as well. Well. Ok it unexciting but not bad... got to see how unexciting it was.

Hmm. And then... O I also met the interns + Thomas for dinner recently too. Wanted to wait for the photos but... Dunno what's WZ doing. Anywayx. Haagen Daaz was cool. And WZ is a nut as usual. Thomas calls him uncensored. I need to get a squirrel with me when WZ gets out of hand. HA. Hmm. And CS is... He finds my amusement puzzling. Well frankly. I haven't much of an explanation for it from myself either. I don't know man. I wonder if I would have actually noticed it if he hadn't pointed it out. Wished that other folks were there as well but... another time then. Heh.

Well there were other things too but... another time maybe. Or maybe not

Renew

Sometimes I feel a bit delayed in understanding myself. Haha. But I think it's ok. Anyway, I feel happy so have so much time in my life man!!!!!!!!! While I was a working person, I really felt that I had no time and the thought of taking a cab was a pretty frequent dropper-by. Now I can go home late for cell and I totally don't mind taking long bus/ train journeys around (I mean. Of course long rides are not enjoyable but at least I'm not fretting about, feeling the thin stretch of time). I am a different person! Ok it's just that I'm back to being a student.

(Straight after the internship ended)
Siew Ying: You guys should go on an overseas trip while you can (during ur student days she means)
Me: Naa... I don't think so...
SY: Y?
Me: Too lazy to plan.

After all the nuahing. I feel that I am slowly activating myself again. Hur.
Nuahing = Staying home to eat, sleep, play guitar, play piano, etc. + Hanging around BISHAN with friends (not much mood to go places further then orchard)
Now I can go places further away. Funny how humans need rest sometimes. And I didn't even realized that I needed such a do-nothing period.

Pentium III??

Today I didn't wake up feeling a happy person. Haix. I suddenly feel that I have like 2 sides. One is the nice side... wants to please people and think nice of people... and the other side is the more analytical side... checks out the other complexities of human nature... Well... maybe they are supposed to compliment each other... but I just didn't feel very happy about seeing the not-so-perfect side of people. Fred said love all, trust few, do harm to none. But I think it's kind of hard for me to love someone whom i don't trust. Maybe I need to re-look into my definition of love. Maybe it's not a small donuty kind of love... maybe it's the nice river kind of love... O. Then I will be God already! But God is really the kindest being in the world la. Anyway, maybe I'm just too naive. Of course we must find a compromise. Even Jesus said be as innocent as a dove and as shrewd as a serpent. I just hope that I don't become a serpent clothed in dove feathers.

I dunno y...

Today Maine came over to my place. Saw her cool pictures of Europe. I don't know why. It's not that I don't enjoy looking at sceneries but I was just so attracted to the FOOOOOOD. The cheese fondue... all the mushroomy stuff. Anyway, we had a conversation that went something like that,

Me: Hey after watching transformers yesterday, it seems like life is more worth it when someone died or fought for you huh. I mean, I've been telling people that life is not really a choice but now I feel that if Jesus died for me it must mean that my life is worth something.
Maine: Uhh... well but you have a choice as to whether to commit suicide or not.
Me: It's not a choice that I give myself la.
Maine: O ok. So do you feel that your life is worth something now?
Me: Yea.
Maine: So what is it worth?
Me: Mmmm.... It's worth as much that someone else had to give up his own for it.
Maine: So what is the worth that God sees??
Me: O I don't know

Post Internship

Titus said that my blog was sterile. I thought he wanted my blog to reproduce or something. But of course he explained that it just looked very clean. Well. Anyway. That's true I reckon. I practise self-censorship. Unless you're my lovely close friend and I just blab to you.

Uhh... Ok I guess today I have started seriously tidying up my room. I just feels good to empty it out. throw away all the annoying stuuuuuff. Ugh! Ok. Though it can get kind of sian. So in the end I went module searching. Was gonna take a nice film module. Too bad I've only one UE left. Otherwise actually I think I need to take a professional communication module too =P I need to get use to speaking more formally. It's not that I can't. It's just that I'm not used to it. Cindy finds my emails amusing because I sound like I'm talking rather then writing.

There is a calm before the storm but I say that in terms for room tidying there is a storm before the calm. I just hope that the storm doesn't last too long. I set aside one week for it already anyway. Plus I'm just lowering my standards to get things done.

Can't believe I wrote so much just on room tidying.

CCSS Fund-raising!

Can finally put up the wonderful mini F1 efforts. YK is just good at doing such complicated things and Emily is a reliable organizer and I am a... I just do whatever I can. Ha.



Heylo fabulous track. You were just amazing. Too bad we couldnt keep you. heh.

MINDEF Moments

Ok... thursday concluded my last day at MINDEF. It was quite a sad day. Ok. A happy and sad day. It's just that goodbyes are a bit hard for me. I must say goodbye like 10 times before I'm done.



Ok. MINDEF interns. At least we got to know one another more when we coordinated our skit



Yay!!!! One of my favourite photos. The only photo I have of my supervisor and the other colleagues



Another favourite photo. Hahahaa. What can I say. We were just so adorably wacky. At least to mee.

Colourful pictures

Found some nice colourful photos of those nursery days. Though there were times where I didn't know how to control the kids...Some of them were just so cute. And we are all so colourfuuuuul....